We have argument again, this time round was about liposuction -.- Actually, it was not really argument because I don’t even get mad/angry when we were exchanging reply. I don’t even know why he feel so agitated and post inside face book and get angry with me. U has your point and I have mine. U won’t experience how I feel when I was in my primary school and past relationship. The person I cherish most left me cause of outer beauty… Thanks ar… And it’s not the first time. I still remember I transferred to wellington primary school due to move house. It’s the very first time, I fell in love with a guy. Nothing good about him, just don’t understand why I like him so much despite he always make fun of me. Express my love to him numerous of time and get rejected every time. He doesn’t have to tell me the reasons why I being rejected, I know clearly of myself. The best thing was he fall in love with my best friend whom prettier and skinnier than me. Don’t tell me that I was living in my past and you’re once fat before but so what..The matter is how u look right now…I’m always the one laugh for being fat, do u really know the feeling a not… From primary school to secondary school, I experience the same old thing happened again and again, and it makes me realize how important looks are. I could tell u each of my story I experiences because it’s already left a scar inside my heart. Certain things I don’t want to say don’t mean I have no feeling. I just want to show people I’m happy, I’m cheerful understand?!
I always feel inferior compared to others. That’s why I always want to look good to impress others. I scare you will leave me again like what marc did to me. I know you also mention that u like the way I’m am but in few years time down the road if I become fat are you going to leave me? U always says that Sharon looked like a ball and I still remember I told you, she’s not virgin… What do u replies me? This type of fat lady also got guy fuck -.-
I scare to face your friends when I without make up, when I wear spec… I scare your friends will influence you and tell you that you got an ugly gf, it’s better to leave her and find new one, these are what marc friends had told marc…U won’t even know how I felt each time…I always want to share with you what I think and feel but it looks like each time, you’re not interested and getting irritated because of that. I’m sorry to cause all this unhappiness.

I'm afraid to love because every time I fall in love it never seems to last, tears are words the heart can’t express